Dear Sis,

I understand perfectly how you feel. You felt alienated during the outing and you can't help feeling that way due to the circumstances you were in. You tried not to read too much into the closeness between RG and Sun. But the situation didn't permit you to do so.

The situation took a turn for the worse when both of you didn't want to open up to each other when he asked about the "black face". I can understand that you wanted to calm yourself down and rationalise your thoughts to prevent more escalating misunderstandings. So you told him that you wanted to cool yourself down. But RG just retorted back, that you'll have to speed up your "cooling off mode". I guess that's when you kept your mouth shut - i.e., you're pissed but you didn't want to make a scene. Maybe he didn't mean to hurt you on purpose, but you were hurt.

Getting drunk was the option you saw to get attention from him after all options failed at the end of the day. Can't blame you. If I were you, and YY was him, I don't think I could have handle the situation much better than you. I would have already went home by myself or hang out with my friends, and left YY alone with his group. I'm that heartless. Because I don't see the need for me to downplay myself like a lowly intelligent person next to him. I've my pride too.

I am not casting judgments on either of you. But all I know is that RG, you should not have walked away when my sis was drunk, no matter how much you hated her to be drunk. What if something bad were to happen to her when you're not around? Do you love her so much that you just dump her in the care of friends than caring her yourself? Are you able to handle the consequences hereafter? You can always tell her off after she's sober and you guys can thrash things out calmly. And whatever my sis does, she is constantly thinking of you.

Ling, I hope you're feeling better. Anything just gimme a call. Blogging is good way to vent out your feelings, but verbalising it is a better option. No matter how busy I am studying for my exams, I'm just a call away, and also 8 bus-stops away. =.='''

Love
Lil' Sis